Well, I updated WordPress and my theme. I seem to have lost my custom header image. I guess I’ll have to find it somewhere on my computer and put it back in! Anyway, it has been a pretty rough 2012. My boyfriend has deployed to Afghanistan (again) for four months. Meanwhile, work has been pretty insane with deadlines. To top off my January, I found out during a work meeting that my Agong (grandpa) passed away on Tuesday evening (Wednesday morning Taiwan time).
I have great memories of Agong. He was always playing with me. He was a fierce Chinese checkers opponent. In his later years, when he started to get sick, he would cling to certain memories of each grand child. For me, he always spoke about how I would always go to the airport to pick up Ama and Agong with my dad. After a few months, they would pack up and then I’d go to the airport to drop them off with my dad. Back in the day, non-passengers could go as far as security to send off their loved ones. He spoke about how I would always ask why they had so many kids and why they couldn’t just stay with my family. Then I would cry at the airport because I didn’t want them to leave me. I totally remember crying and waving through the glass window to my grandparents as they walked away through security.
It scares me how I’m getting older and that death is just so much more real now. Now, I feel like that little girl again. I don’t want my Agong to leave me.
Sadly, I will be returning to Taiwan in a month to say my final farewells to Agong.